First of all, I’m thankful that I’m not a donkey. Also I’m thankful that I wasn’t born a medieval peasant. Breaking my back all day, not being able to take a shower in the morning.. worrying about what to eat everyday. Those are definitely bigger problems.
Form that point of view, I’m such a lucky person. However, I’m instinctively greedy.
Recently I realized that one or two years went by, and nothing really changed. I mean, my Japanese has somewhat improved. I have more experience as a programmer. I met new people, done things. But mostly really just a routine.
Perhaps I should have traveled more, I should have had some passionate and traumatic love relationship to sign me (some people seem to augment relationships perhaps with that goal in mind).
I could have done more to break the routine, but that’s not really a good solution to me. The problem is my brain. When compared to modern digital storage media, it really lacks behind.
It’s no wonder that Google is the hot thing of these times. I find myself more and more relying on it as an extension to my memory.That’s a big improvement from already 10-15 years ago, but still not what I wish.
Time goes by and I don’t really make much of it. I can take more pictures, I can film more things but, ultimately, I feel like I’m a stupid neural network. A blackbox that gets so much input but that only keeps a tiny fraction of all the information its exposed to.
The ability to forget things is sometimes useful. Makes one feel less pain in certain cases, but it’s also less truthful.
I’m not happy with being a mere human and I would like to fix this !
Perhaps I should look for a job at Microsoft 8)
Posted by Davide Pasca in Diary