Saturday, I had a small gathering at home. Some nice girls came. When I say nice I mean that when they left the apartment, it actually looked cleaner than before !
It’s nice when people show some sensitivity… it’s not a very common thing. In the past I’ve been breaking my back to make some people happy, only to get my ass kicked around.. fack that !
The gathering went well and after that we went clubbing.
For once it was relaxing to go a club with (non-slutty) female friends, without feeling like a lost soul on a mission !
Tonight (tuesday) I went out again, with a friend. Today and tomorrow and the day after is holiday. Three whole days that mark the so-called Golden Week. A yearly recurring event, although every year the days are distributed differently (sometimes in the weekend 8( ).
The night was nice overall. Not many people around, but we managed to get in good terms with a group of nice girls. However it was somewhat stressful to me, because my friend is very forward and will pretty much jump on a girl before you can even think about her. Actually he usually tells me which one he likes best, then he tells me the second best, so he pretty much tells me all the girls he likes (the nicer ones !) and I’m left in a sort of warned state, left there hanging, feeling guilty for even getting close to any of the preys he’s already marked.
I think that this situation has to change. One just can’t always try to wait for the lion to serve himself, because the lion will always eat all the food 8)
However, the hardest part is actually to deal with my own character. Often there will be a group of two or more girls in which only one or two are really attractive. This is a big problem because I know that by showing interest towards one, the less attractive will somewhat resent of that. I can imagine her seeing the same scene over and over again, every time she hangs out with her friend. And that blocks me from showing my honest interest towards the nice girl.
So, really, it’s not so much matter of playing on a leveled field with the lions, but, mostly, matter of being insensitive towards those that need it the least.
Then there are the forward girls, those that jump on you. While this makes the job much easier, because one doesn’t need to worry about being insensitive, they are still female lions, and one is just the prey of the day..
In the end, to survive, I need to learn to be an asshole 8) Otherwise I’ll be generally starving, and occasionally be eaten.
bha !
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