Recently I watched the movie American Pyscho. I liked it among other things, because it was set in the 80s. Very nice soundtrack 8) although the setting was not too convincing. It didn’t look naturally 80ish. Everything was so neat and clean, which reflects the main character, but doesn’t give the 80s feeling, with its pink-candy look. Still, who cares, it’s not a documentary.
I mention the movie only now, because today I had my 5 minutes of “psycho”. One works every single day, comes back home at night, struggles to find the time to even do the laundry, works on his birthday, always say yes, yes (hai !). Then works 40 hours towards the end.. only to be awaken the next day “where are you ?”, “what what I’m.. was I supposed to work ?”, “no but there is a bug, come at 1PM”.
Then I pick up and go to work, to see what’s this bug about, only to find out there is no single real bug, but rather a need to apport several consistent changes. I get into the office hoping to get out soon but I realize that I’m going to work into the night, again !
I tried my best, but eventually I snapped, walked off some sort of meeting and went to cope with a sudden attack of rage !
I very much prefer the Japanese work environment, because everyone is so kind to each other, but at the same time, one can only take so much, and eventually snaps losing control. It’s something that scares me. When a person regrets to the animal stage anything could happen.
Ten minutes later I was at my desk silently working on the code (hai, hai !).

Of course, as usual, not all bad things come to do bad. All this hard work has reminded me that there is still quite a bit of personal work that I have to do to gain my freedom. Also reminded me that I do need to work towards this freedom.. by freedom, I mean to reach the point where I don’t need to find myself in very limiting conditions where I’m constantly told what and how to do it.

Woo !!

P.S.
 ”A signo’, io me vado a fa du orette de sonno !”
 ”Sto lavoro non e’ n’lavoro, e na galera !!”

 From the movie Bianco Rosso e Verdone. Where a truck driver (the magnificent Mario Brega) says that his job is like a jail and he’s going for a two hours nap 8)

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