It’s 4PM and I just woke up…. another night spent… coding ! 8)
The plan for yesterday night was to go out partying, but people around me seem all to be getting towards the age of marriage. That and other things.. but mostly it’s all about women. It’s the women that really dictate men’s behavior !
It’s however, important to be able to take the best out of any situation, so I decided that perhaps the night was intended for coding, and so I proceeded until 8PM.
At this stage with DSharingu, I have several things to rewrite. Yesterday night I went about the Settings dialog. It was initially built using some sort of automated system to create a dialog and save settings data in a config file. I trashed most of that. I kept the file saving routines but, for the GUI, I reverted to the good old Windows Resource Editor and WM_COMMAND switch-case.
The idea of an automated dialog maker is nice, but there are just too many exceptions for the use I need to make. I don’t want to have too many dialogs. The few I have also have to be simple. Building and expanding a whole system to do all that is just overkill.
I’m pretty close to release the next version. Basic features are there and it’s probably time to go back to compression and iron down those special cases where bandwidth is an issue (the whole screen transmitted is a 280KB transfer !).

I really want to make a new release and let things go by themselves, so that I don’t have to keep answering to people that ask me “why are you doing it ? There must be already other products like this around !”. Recently I’ve been somewhat moody.. and one of these days I may come up with an answer along the lines “why are you living ? You are just another human among billions on this planet !”.
What I think pisses me off, is the fact that people have this tendency to want me to become a user. I want to be a developer at all costs. Life as a user is boring to me ! Make me write the software I want, the software I need as a user and as a learning developer. Sometimes it’s good to “reinvent the wheel”.

Now, back to the “not being able to go partying issue”: I think that what upsets me there is that I project myself in the shoes of the pussy whipped friends. I see them wasting a great deal of time doing stupid things (shopping, generally living as a couple) and then not being able to be themselves. Having to hide truths, even cheating on their girlfriends (at least until the woman gets a real grip on them). I see myself in there (cheating aside, fack lies), seduced by a girl to embark on a family life with things to do, jobs to hold onto, money to make, screaming kids, women telling you what to do and what to wear ! In this society, women are obsessed with their looks and they will project that on men. Here in Japan I see a lot of men turning faggy. Those so-called men, spend countless hours browsing fashion magazines, messing with their hair and putting shit on their faces. I worry about my looks too.. but women can turn your worries into paranoia. They spot a defect, make you notice, and then you spend a week or even a month in front of a facking mirror !!
It’s OK to be honest, but one should also try to be more supportive. If you think I have an ugly face, tell me I have nice hands.

So, when I talk to a friend, it’s OK to exchange some anecdotes about family life, but eventually I want to know what he has been coding, doing, realizing. I want to talk about productive topics, not chit-chat about mundane bullshit. I can do that with everyone.. my brain needs real stimulation !
I learned a couple of years ago to always bring either an MP3 player or a book (usually both) with me.. you never know when someone will start boring you to death. I hate people that make me waste my time. Time is the most precious thing.

Posted by Davide Pasca in Programming, Society, Diary